Genie

I feel like doing this, and I'm bored as all hell.

( 2008 )

This will be my last entry.

I will not be able to maintain an online journal any longer. I only update here when I feel like I'm making a change in my life, and updating on those points has hindered rather than furthered progress towards those goals. I've found that I do a lot less than I say, and as such this journal has been filled with a bunch of unfulfilled aspirations and painful memories that I care not to maintain.

So this is it. Life awaits.

So this is what it feels like, to wake up every morning wrapped in his arms, planting little kisses on his nose and forehead to wake him, and to be able to say those three little words, and hear them back, and have them mean something.

* sigh *

So this is me, sitting on James's bed in Halifax, patiently waiting for him to get home from work after having spent a lovely morning with him for his birthday and a fantastic afternoon with his mother while he was at work. I must say, so far I've enjoyed my trip IMMENSELY. Honestly, this is the greatest.

It didn't start off too promising...he'd been in a funk for a few days and he wasn't sure I was going to enjoy myself because he has work and class and studying. Also, when the flight was about to take off, the airport people came on the announcer and said that we might have to turn around and come back to Toronto if the weather didn't let up in Halifax. Needless to say, I landed safe and sound on time. The minute I saw him I knew everything was going to be perfect...that guy still gives me the biggest case of the butterflies :)

We went to a wedding yesterday. His mom picked me up from the airport with him, so I was already introduced to her, but I didn't meet the rest of his family until yesterday. Anyways, they're all pretty nice; his brother is a little serious and a touch awkward but his girlfriend is superfriendly, his sister isn't as bad as he's made her out to be and his dad is nice as well. I also met a BUNCH of his mom's side of the family at the wedding, and honestly, I don't think I've met a friendlier group of people in my life. I was hanging out with his little cousins the whole time, his grandparents and uncles and aunts were chatting with me the whole time, and I could tell that James was also enjoying himself, which made things infinitely better. We were invited to go to PEI for a few days at the end of the week and depending on James's work schedule we're gonna go :D

Seeing him is the greatest thing I could've ever imagined. I love waking up with his arms wrapped around me (it is ABSOLUTE HEAVEN), I love his house (where mine is big, his has so much character and life), his family is awesome, he's so much happier and so am I now that I'm here. I love this place, and I love my guy.

Maybe I'll update later in the week, but for now, I'm just letting you all know what kind of AWESOME TIME I'm having here.

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I love having MSN.com as my homepage.

I was watching a number of documentaries this weekend and one in particular stuck in my mind. If anyone has heard of HBO's Thin...well, I saw it, and it was probably the most bleak depiction of eating disorders that I have ever seen in my life. This woman was given complete access to a women's eating disorder recovery facility and she recorded what she saw without commentary. The content was so real and so powerful that I don't think I've ever been affected by a documentary as much as I was with this one. I had to take breaks from watching; there were a few scenes which were really, really difficult to watch, and I had to regroup before I could watch the rest. I finished the movie feeling shaken and incredibly weak, only because the movie did nothing but show that recovery from eating disorders is painful, emotionally draining, and almost impossible. I highly recommend it, only because it demonstrates the complexities that these women have to deal with every day of their lives.

Yeah, so there was my weekend :p I also watched Farenheit 911, a documentary about scientology, one about supermarkets (I don't want to eat supermarket food ever again :S), one about the CIA and one about Bill Gates and Steve Jobs. That, and I saw 1408, sat out in the sun by my pool for 3 hours and played some guitar. What a low-key weekend :D

2.5 weeks till I get to see mah dahling. I'm so excited..."I crapped em, mommy I crapped em!"

I just watched Beauty and the Beast, and I can't help but think of James *not in that we're the main characters :P only in that I always cry during that movie and this time it was like hitting me in the head with a brick...makes it all the more real* So, on that note, I'ma talk in a very cheesy fashion about my amazing, darling, fantastic boyfriend, who (whom?) I couldn't love another ounce more. Deal? Deal.

( WARNING: CHEESE )

There's nothing like misplaced accusations to send you spiralling into a rage that will clean the house from top to bottom.

XD

Take that, Mom!